Uhm,

Lately, I kept remembering about my, uhm, you can call him as my 'friend'. After 4-5 years, uhm, 'knowing him', I just got the 'hint' now when he gave....4 years back. Haha. Obviously I've been thinking hard about what happened in my high school life since form 1-5. Because I am too, uhm, always thinking about myself, I kept pushing him away. But sometimes he crawled back, but I just, uhm, kept pushing him. Why lah you, Diya. You know, that, bad boys' attraction. Doing something bad to try attract someone's attraction. Why didnt I see that, at that time. Why am I so blind!? We have the same interest. We both like the IT things (at that time), we like the same genre of musics, we like games, and we like the, uhm, challenges of life. Wah gitu ayat aku. Haha. But then, at that time, I only consider him as a friend. friendzonealertt. Maybe now, at this age of 18, Ive figured out about this, uhm, friendship and relationship things. But the one mistake, that makes him apart of me, is when he is asking about, uhm, something about his physical appearance, and I think I didnt answered it, according to what I supposed to answer.

But then, a moment later, he found a girl that he really like. Im happy for him, but I thought, his relationship would make our, uhm, 'friendship' destroyed. But I was wrong. When he had problems, he still asking me and things like that. 

And just like that, I dont know, when what how, it just suddenly happen. Our, uhm, friendship had destroyed. We acted as if we dont know each other. Hm. Pelik kan? Tak. Huhu. I dont talk to him now. Boo