Insecure post.

You know that feeling. That exclude feeling. That unwanted feeling. That loneliness feeling. I hate those feelings. Its making me depressed. And insane. 2 weeks after my freedom, and I already cause lotsa troubles. Sigh. 

You know that feeling. That insecure feeling. That Im-the-ugliest-person feeling. That jealousy feeling. I hate those feelings too. I know Im not perfect. Yada yada all those cliche words, 'Nobody is perfect'. Ah, but there are some people that I really think they are nearly-perfect. Those beautiful eyes, nice curve of lips, flawless face, perfect cheek bone and jaw line,  nice curve of body, long legs, always smiling, very funny and cool. Its like, all boys' dream girl! 

But thats the problem here. Boys always give their priorities to this beautiful chicks. I'll give you an example. There are 2 girls. The first girl who I call her Ain. She is all the characteristics I gave you in my previous paragraph. And then, theres this other girl, her name is Sara. She is a bit plump. Pimples all over her face. A bit tomboyish. And sometimes a loner. Which one would you choose to be friend/more than friend with? Ain, who is your dream girl and you'll get all the popularity and other shit. Or Sara, just a simple ordinary girl. You would probably answer with the cliche answers 'Oh, I'll choose the most kind and sweet girl. I dont care about their look.' Yada yada with your bullshit. Haha. Maybe its human nature. Beautiful girls get a more attention and benefit than the not-so-beautiful girls. And boys would choose the beautifuls over the beast ordinary.

Same goes to the girls. They usually give their priorities to the popular, hot, cute, funny guys. So, what about those not so attractive boys? Im sure they need friends too. Im sure they have heart too. So be equal to everyone. Why? Because God made us all the same. No one is special. I really need to grow up and think maturely. Yeah, Im not attractive. So what. Hah!